The Purpose Of My Life!

Do we all come in to this world with a purpose? If so, why do some of us feel so lost all the time. We go about spending our days like little specks of intense emotion without a boundary and without reason. It took me sometime to find my purpose in life. It was there in front of me all along and some people did point it out too. I was just too occupied by what I thought life was all about to notice. Here's a small story I read in a 'Chicken Soup' book that pretty much sums me up.


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"Dr. Papaderos, what is the meaning of life?"

The usual laughter followed, and people stirred to go. Papaderos held up his hand and stilled the room and looked at me for a long time, asking with his eyes if I was serious and seeing from my eyes that I was.

"I will answer your question."

Taking his wallet out of his hip pocket, he fished in to a leather billfold and brought out a very small round mirror, about the size of a quarter.

And what he said went like this:

"When I was a small child, during the war, we were very poor and we lived in a remote village. One day, on the road, I found the broken pieces of a mirror. A German motorcycle had been wrecked in that place.

"I tried to find all the pieces and put them together, but it was not possible, so I kept only the largest piece. This one, and, by scratching it on a stone, I made it round. I began to play with it as a toy and became fascinated by the fact that I could reflect light into dark places where the sun would never shine - in deep holes and crevices and dark closets. It became a game for me to get light into the most inaccessible places I could find.

"I kept the little mirror, and, as I went about my growing up, I would take it out in idle moments and continue the challenge of the game. As I became a man, I grew to understand this was not just a child's name but a metaphor for what I might do with my life. I came to understand that I am not the light or the source of the light. But light - truth, understanding, knowledge - is there, and it will shine in many dark places only if I reflect it.

"I am a fragment of a mirror whose whole design and shape I do not know. Nevertheless, with what I have, I can reflect light into the dark places of this world. - into the blackest places in the hearts of men - and change some things in some people. Perhaps others may see and do likewise. This is what I am about. This is the meaning of my life. "

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Being happy is so easy. It just boils down to whether we can open up our hearts and experience the joy the world has to offer. Its very easy to dwell in the dark corners of our psyche and languish there waiting for the eventuality. At a small level, my happiness brings a smile to others around me. My purpose in life is not to be a great discoverer or to be a great adventurer or a great teacher. My purpose in life is simple: To rediscover happiness and help others re-discover them. Its time for a positive change. After all, the world could always use a little more light.

Somethings Never Mix!

Sasi at his hilarious best!!! :D

Dilemma Central

Often, I get dragged in to matters that don't concern me. And this happens only because I care for people without practical bounds of reason. While this hasn't gotten me in to trouble, its left my mind in a bit of a turmoil. I know both sides of the struggle. I know two kinds of pain. I know desperation and I know delusion. Even when I know of that thin strand that connects these two, my mind is still in turmoil. And I don't see any way out of this.

It is so much easier to handle things when the pain is yours. When dealing with others, personal boundaries start to blur. Emotion clouds intellect. Practical reasoning is now a road left unused. How does one, who is none of the two, manage three perspectives, and manage to fix things? All I know is that I am the man for the job because I know I wont give up.

A wise little girl once told me, "If you can bring a single ray of sunshine in to the lives of someone in the dark, that light is enough to light up the nine worlds above and below." God bless her and her spirit because it is teaching me something new everyday.

Like Edna St. Vincent Millay said,

My candle burns at both ends;
It will not last the night;
But, ah, my foes, and, oh, my friends--
It gives a lovely light!

Far Away

You never really know what you have until you lose it. All those afternoons when I felt too lazy to get out and meet you, those days I stood you up and yet you came back the next day for me, the lazy and carefree way you would play with my hair, all the tantrums I threw and the love you gave me in return... I'd give anything to experience it for just a minute. Distance wedged a small gap between us but I know I will fill it up... and I know you will always be there to take care of me. Love & Peace.

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

One my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Aj n Me!

Hey all. Since I'm the new captain of this boat, let me introduce myself. I'm Liz. And for the forseeable future, this blog is going to be mine. :) Thought I'd start out with something that most people who know Aj would know... our story! :)

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CAT Exam

The day I had been waiting for. I had taken coaching classes and had worked really hard to know that I was going to ace this exam. I was so well prepared that nothing could go wrong. What finally happened there was something that even years of practice couldn't have helped. When I got to the exam hall, I was oblivious to everything else around me. I tried revising a few math formulae at the end hoping that that would help. After it was time, I got my seat in the exam hall and sat down. It was a small school bench barely enough for me. It had to accommodate another person. I kept praying it was a girl.

Then he walked in. I had seen him outside smoking near where the bikes were parked. He had been looking at me intently and I instantly slotted him in the 'Absolutely not' category. Yeah, I had categories back then. To my horror, he walked up and sat right next to me. I expected him to reek of cigarette smoke. Surprisingly he did not smell so bad. He fidgeted around for a few minutes. The genius had walked in with a pen and nothing else. Did he not read the instructions? He looked at me. I had a whole kit there. Three pencils, an eraser, a sharpener and what not. He then asked me for a pencil. I felt like lecturing him about reading instructions and all but I just did not want to spoil the flow. That was just the cue he needed. A glib talker, he quickly got me to tell my name and what I studied and all. He even had the cheek to make fun of my name. I hated him so much at that moment. He told me his name was Ajay and flashed a smile. And thats when it all started.

He asked me out - in the middle of a national exam. Who does that? I stared in disbelief for a few seconds before asking him to shut up. He continued to ask me out throughout the exam. It wasn't the cheap 'please please' type. Everytime he asked me out, he had a different reason why. Despite the moment, I kinda found it innovative. And he wasn't bad looking either. Just different. I ignored him. I saw him filling up the paper at rocket speed and figured he would never pass. We gave the paper at the same time and got up. He tried talking to me all the way down till we got out of the school. I just turned around and flashed the angriest expression I could muster up and told him to go away and threatened to inform the officials. He looked stunned (like he did not expect it at all). He quietly said sorry and walked away very slowly (vintage Ajay emo blackmail). I felt miserable. I tore some of the question paper off and wrote my phone number on it. I stared at it for sometime and then on impulse, I went and tapped him on his shoulder and put the paper in his hand and ran off. The last time I turned back and looked, he was grinning at me. For some reason, that gave me such a high.

3 weeks later, I had given up all hope of this guy calling me up. I was planning to go out with some friends of mine but I was dreading this visit to the movies. There was this guy in that group who had a big crush on me and I just couldn't stand him. Out of the blue, my phone rang and it was Ajay calling. I recall being shocked, angry and relieved at the same time. He then told me how his pant got washed along with my note and then got ironed and then he noticed the number. He was lucky the numbers were still intact because of the way he crushed the paper and threw it inside. Utterly irresponsible. He asked me out then. I told him that I wanted to meet up too but I had to go out with friends. I felt horrible doing that as I wanted to meet him so bad. We went to a movie theater closer to my place which is outside the city. I told Ajay where I was going. I did not expect him to come there obviously. Imagine my surprise when I saw him standing there. He coolly walked up to me and hugged me like I was his girlfriend and then kissed me. I remember the goosebumps. I had never kissed a guy before and it was awesome. That other guy was fuming. He tried to break us up but Ajay pushed him away telling him that I was his girlfriend (in what I now think is one of the lamest dialogues ever). Somehow, I couldn't even get myself to protest. I think that was when I had started to fall in love. And the feeling was indescribable.

P.S. He beat me at the CAT exam and scored a 91 percentile without even studying. Well... I was not allowed to concentrate and he is to be blamed! :)

Plans :)

Eid Mubarak world!

The first long weekend of September is drawing to a close. Between beers, coffees, forced shopping and rock shows, this one rocked. Went to see the rock band competition at Extreme Sports Bar. Lost In Translation, a band that has a lot of my colleagues in it was making a comeback after two and a half years. They rocked. Too bad the judges did not allow them to continue after their 25 minute slot.

We're also making plans to use one of the weekends for a small trip. As always, my thoughts gravitated towards Vizag. I dont know what it is about that place that draws me there every time. Well, Tush suggested that we try Dindi instead which is in the East Godavari area. They even offer a cruise as a part of the vacation plan. Sounds good. It might just be a little expensive. We're working that out. :)



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Remembering Peaches!

Peaches, was Liz's dog. A rare breed - a friendly pom! I hadn't thought of Peaches in a long time and yet today, all of a sudden, memories just came flooding out.

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Was coming back home with a visibly pissed off grandfather. Why? Who knows? They're grandparents and apparently don't need a reason. Anyway, as we neared home, I saw what looked like Tushar's dog, Doey, run past. She was gone before I could look back. I called Tush up as soon as we got home and it turned out that no one was home and so it was highly possible that that was Doey.

Tushar then came around my place and we went looking for Doey. Stupidly enough, we went out in the Innova which was tough to maneuver. We then went back and got my bike. Then we got a call from another family friend that she was seen near their house. We headed there. We kinda realized that she seemed to be heading to their construction site. We headed in that general direction and sure enough, she was there. She had found her way there after having been taken there just a few times. Man, was that relieving.

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Peaches had gone missing in much the same way. Unfortunately, no one had seen her. No one to tell us where she had gone. She went missing in the morning and within a few hours all of us friends were there looking for her. Considering they stayed in the outskirts of the city, Peaches could have gone anywhere. She was old and cranky.

I found her. She had been hit by a vehicle. I remember sitting there choking up. The others arrived a few moments later. Lizzie broke down over there and sat on the road with Peaches in her arms. I still remember her crying. It brings tears to my eyes even now.

We had her funeral on that same rainy August day. I was just a kid trying to console another. I kept asking Lizzie to stop crying and now in retrospect, I think it was dumb of me to ask that. I also kept asking her if I could do something for her. What could I do? I could not bring Peaches back for her. Despite her tears, she turned to me with an expression frozen midway between anger and grief and asked me if I could quit smoking for her. And I quit.. instantly.

Despite the number of years I'm putting between that day, the memories remain just as fresh in my mind. I'm glad everything worked out good today. If only that day had ended differently...

Afternoons In The Monsoon

Remember when we had the time and patience to sit and watch the rain fall? I happened to come across the awesome video posted above. Its the sound of rain and thunder while on a river. When I think about it, all of us friends have spent some amazing time in the rain. I remember going on drives with Tush (and sometimes Anu) towards Shamirpet or just to Kapra lake. I used to love those rides. :)

And Lizzie, those awesome afternoons under that gazebo at the lake park at Osman Sagar... are some of the best memories I have of the time we spent together. Sitting there with some piping hot onion samosas (and an occasional beer) and watch the rain shake up the lake. Yeah... heavens the word for this!

House Of Cards - (Radiohead)

Just something I came to hear along the way...



I don't want to be your friend
I just want to be your lover
No matter how it ends
No matter how it starts

Forget about your house of cards
And I'll do mine
Forget about your house of cards
And I'll do mine

Fall off the table and get swept under

Denial, denial

The infrastructure will collapse
From voltage spikes
Put your keys in the bowl
Kiss your husband goodnight

Forget about your house of cards
And I'll do mine
Forget about your house of cards
And I'll do mine

Fall off the table and get swept under

Denial, denial
Denial, denial

Finally Alone...

Finally alone..
This was not what I wanted.
I'd give anything
to get it all back.

That one perfect minute
when the hearts intertwine
to bend to the melody
of the soul.

It ended so fast,
as if by a mysterious force.
Little did I know
such forces flow freely in me.

And, now I sit quietly,
gazing in to the sunset,
the strong scent of a cigarette
invading my senses,
I quietly watch the smoke melt away.

I cant help but stare,
wondering why I am here
and not with her.
Wonders of the heart
will never cease to be,
emotions running wild,
I try to see where I went wrong.

I realize for the first time
the fault lies within me,
at the core of my very being.
Close my eyes and breathe deep,
I try to make peace with my demons,
and bare my heart bravely
to the ravages of heartbreak.

Never Gonna Be Alone

Sometimes, it takes several moments for it to sink in and sometimes, it takes but an instant. Never rush it but waiting for it to happen is not great too. They say that we realize how important someone is for us only after we lose them. Love is special. Cherish it while it lasts because this moment will never come again. Freeze your happiness and your love in this moment of time. Open up cherie .. for you may not have this chance again.



Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you.
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not telling all of it to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...

You never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall...
Your never gonna be alone!
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands,
'Cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you,
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...

You never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world on,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

Ooooh!
You've gotta live every single day,
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away,
Could be our only one, you know it's only just begun.
Every single day,
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes...

Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.

You never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world on,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

I'm gonna be there all along the way
I won't be missing one more day
I'm gonna be there all along the way
I won't be missing one more day

21 Guns

The lyrics of Green Day's '21 Guns'... a masterpiece!

Do you know what's worth fighting for,
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins.

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

Twilight

His dreams were broken
their fragments scattered.
Bent down to pick them up
and he realized,
they were now pieces of another puzzle.

He closed his eyes,
each breath drawing in memories
of a life he once had.

He wandered around,
lost in his thoughts,
thoughts of the twilight of his emotions.

His senses grew numb
as he waited
for the darkness to take control.
His heart shuddered
at the thought of departure.

He closed his eyes
and slept deep
until the time he is called again
to be a part
of another puzzle.

Last Night On Earth

I text a postcard, sent to you
Did it go through?
Sending all my love to you.
You are the moonlight of my life every night
Giving all my love to you
My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles 'til I found you
I'm here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
I'm sending all my love to you.

With every breath that I am worth
Here on Earth
I'm sending all my love to you.
So if you dare to second guess
You can rest assured
That all my love's for you

My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles 'til I found you
I'm here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
I'm sending all my love to you.

My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles 'til I found you
I'm here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
Did I ever make it through?

The Best Funny Signs Ever...

Potty training?


Irony is lost on some people...


Doggies... bark once if this helps. :)


Like duh..


Now thats asking for it.. :)


You dont say... you dumbass!


Not such a good place to go driving in a car.. hah :)


That sure kills my plans :)


Talk about getting around the rules :P


Umm.. sure.. now about the bridge.. :)


Heh heh :) LMAO :)


Grr...


Aaah this must be the one... :D ROTFL!

The Roof Is On Fire - Chipmunks :)

LOL :) Sounds like someone is trying to drown the damn chipmunks :)

For the heart I once had...

Heaven today is but a way
To a place I once called home
Heart of a child, one final sigh
As another love goes cold

Once my heart beat to the
Rhythm of the falling snow
Blackened below, the river now flows
A stream of molten virgin snow

For the heart I'll never have
For the child forever gone
The music flows because it longs
For the heart I once had

Living today without a way
To understand the weight of the world
Faded and torn, old and forlorn
My weak and hoping heart

For the child, for the light
For the heart I once had
I'll believe and foresee
Everything I could ever be

For the heart I'll never have
For the child forever gone
The music flows because it longs
For the heart I once had

Time will not heal a dead boy's scars
Time will kill

For the heart I'll never have
For the child forever gone
The music flows because it longs
For the heart I once had

Where Angels Fear To Tread

Well Im wrapped around your finger
Im never letting go
You know Im happy just to linger
And let the feeling flow

This must be an illusion
I know this cant be real
But right here and right now
This is paradise I feel

I never thought Id find someone to move me
Someone who could see right thru me
You found your way into my head
Where even angels fear to tread

Dont wanna go out walkin
Dont wanna take a drive
Dont wanna move from this sweet spot baby
While this feelins still alive

The way we fit together
Its like were meant to be
And right here and right now
This is paradise to me

Are We Human?

"Alessandra Go!" ... Sorry... she is gorgeous!



I did my best to notice
when the call came down the line
up to the platform of surrender
I was brought but I was kind
and sometimes I get nervous
when I see an open door

close your eyes, clear your heart

cut the cord
are we human or are we dancer
my sign is vital, my hands are cold
and I’m on my knees looking for the answer
are we human or are we dancer

pay my respects to grace and virtue
send my condolences to good
give my regards to soul and romance
they always did the best they could
and so long to devotion, you taught me everything I know
wave good bye, wish me well

you gotta let me go
are we human or are we dancer
my sign is vital, my hands are cold
and I’m on my knees looking for the answer
are we human or are we dancer

will your system be alright
when you dream of home tonight
there is no message were receiving
let me know is your heart still beating

are we human or are we dancer
my sign is vital, my hands are cold
and I’m on my knees looking for the answer

you’ve gotta let me know
are we human or are we dancer
my sign is vital, my hands are cold
and I’m on my knees looking for the answer
are we human
or are we dancer

are we human or are we dancer
are we human or are we dancer

Dreams At Twilight!

Come to think of it, it was never meant to happen. Nonetheless, when it did happen, it almost felt like a kick to the gut. Expectations are powerful adversaries. They are occasionally allies but that is a conversation for a better time. It rendered my thoughts incoherent for a long time, hiding my intentions from myself. It hit with a terrifying subtlety.

Now, that the storm has passed, I can't but help think that I brought this on myself. An unfortunate lack of control over my emotions. Life has become a journey from one emotion to another. Was it meant to be this way? If it is, I am there and is this what it was supposed to be like? I ask this because I am neither sad nor am I happy. Just an impassionate surrender to events beyond my control.

Friday... I'm in love!

Happy Friday!



I don't care if monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and wednesday too
Thursday i don't care about you
It's friday i'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's friday i'm in love

Saturday wait
And sunday always comes too late
But friday never hesitate...

I don't care if monday's black
Tuesday wednesday heart attack
Thursday never looking back
It's friday i'm in love

Monday you can hold your head
Tuesday wednesday stay in bed
Or thursday watch the walls instead
It's friday i'm in love

Saturday wait
And sunday always comes too late
But friday never hesitate...

Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise

Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round

Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night

You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's friday
I'm in love!

What now?

What now?

I know not. For all the newfound wisdom, now that I truly remember the eons past... I don't know. I grieve for the loss of life, for the suffering, for the battles and yet I rejoice in their glorious tales whose wonder will never die. But now I stand alone, at the crossroads of eternity, waiting to fade away from the memories of my past.

And as I peer in to the veils of eternity, I see nothing. If only I had a star to guide me or a bird to show me a sign.

The end is past and the its time for new stories and a braver new world. For the moment, I think, I will rest. I'll lie still and silent. Strip my mind of thoughts. I shall close my eyes and breathe deep the slumber of eons.

Special

At some point in time, a person is blessed with meeting someone so special who touches life in a way that no one has before, in a way that is inexpressible, as it is a mutual linking of two hearts, friendship like no other, for you know it is something special right from the beginning, even if you have known the person for a very short time.

It is rare... and special!

Crashing Down!

Sometimes, despite our best efforts, we have no control over life. One moment, life is perfect and the next moment, suddenly you're crashing down. Trying your best to hold on to those beautiful memories. A part of me is dying today and I have no one to mourn with. I surrender myself to the pain, to the memories, to what all we represent and to the future.

These back steps are steeper to the ground
The brightest stars are falling down
I’m walking the edge, walking the tightest rope
We can be frank, reality rips on through, rolling like a hurricane
I’m over the bridge and under the rain

If everything’s falling, if everything’s changed
If I’m in the open, if I’m in the way
What am I doing here
If you’re not with me

What have I got to live for, if it’s just my own dream
Take it back to the beginning, back to the start
When gravity’s pulling, you’re still holding my heart
You come crashing down
Crashing down

These four walls are closing in on me
The talk is louder than I’ll sing
I want to be there, want to be where you are
but you know it all, Every look and smile that aren’t meant to break
I’m over the bridge and under the rain

If everything’s falling, if everything’s changed
If I’m in the open, if I’m in the way
What am I doing here
If you’re not with me

What have I got to live for, if it’s just my own dream
Take it back to the beginning, back to the start
When gravity’s pulling, you’re still holding my heart
You come crashing down
Crashing down

And you say that everything is different, why don’t we just hold on
And you say that everything is different, why don’t we just hold on
Crashing down

Negativity

There are these odd days when nothing seems to happen to you but a whole lot happens everywhere around you. It is intriguing that on closer introspection, what happens around you is somehow closely related to you. Why do what people say affect me? Actually they don't... not very much at least. I now see that people are saying only things that affect me. Odd right? The problem is in me. I'm making them say these things. Nope I am not telepathic now (I wish).

I have filled myself with so much negativity that I twist situations to suit that frame of mind. I feel sad when I see beggars on the streets and I wish I could do something. I have the same feeling of despair when I watch extremists impose their will on the weak and defenseless. I am most miserable when I see children begging for money to satisfy their hunger, not knowing that there is a life beyond ensuring that there is dinner. But what I don't see is that there are situations that are not as bad as I make them out to be. What I seem to forget is that I have in me the possibility of making things better.

My feelings influenced the mood in this case. Its time to let their feelings influence me. I give the beggars some food and their faces light up like the fireworks at New Year. Didn't that make a difference? In a small way... it did! Small incidents like this are helping me drive the negativity out. Its time for a little more balance. Its time for healing! Finally, after so long, I think there is a way out!

Pre-School Politics

Why I Chose You...

People ask me why you chose me. They've asked me so much that I realize I have no answer to this either. What I know is why I chose you. You make my life happier. Everything I see has a different shade to it. You bring about the best in me. Loads of love...

Gunguni dhoop ki tarah se taranum mein tum,
Choo ke mujhe guzari hu yu,
Dekhu tumhe ya mein sunu,
Tum ho sukoon, tum ho junoon,
Kyu pehle naa aayi tum?

Lousy Shot At Pool!

This is pretty much how I am at Pool (the game.) All the preparation and I fizzle out at the wrong time. :P

Everything

And more...

I'd Come For You

Just one more moment, that's all that's needed.
Like wounded soldiers in need of healing
Time to be honest, this time I'm pleading
Please don't dwell on it, cause I didn't mean it

I can't believe I said I'd lay our love on the ground
But it doesn't matter cause I
made it up. Forgive me now
Everyday I spend away my souls inside out
Gotta be some way that I can make it
up to you now, somehow.

By now you know that
I'd come for you
No one but you, yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you

I was blindfolded, but now I'm seeing
My mind was closing, now I'm believing
I finally know just what it
means to let someone in
To see the side of me that no one does or ever will
So if you're ever lost and find yourself all alone
I'd search forever just to bring you home,
Here and now this I vow

By now you know that
I'd come for you
No one but you, yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
You know I'd always come for you

No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
No matter what, remember you know
I'll always come for you

Yes I'd come for you, no one but you,
Yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to

And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you

No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
No matter what, remember you know
I'll always come for you
I'd crawl across this world for you
Do anything you want me to
No matter what, remember you know
I'll always come for you
You know I'll always come for you

The Lost Generation

Somethings are more important!

Us

"To the four years I've known you. To the one year we've spent apart. To your passion and to my quirks. To the great time we've spent together and to all the love in between. To Us... all over again."

Discover Coldplay!

Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.

I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh let's go back to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Comin' in tails,
Heads on a science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin',
At numbers and figures,
Pullin' the puzzles apart.

Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

Tell me you love me,
Come back and haunt me,
Oh, what a rush to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Chasin' tails,
Comin' back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm goin' back to the start.

Regressive Moral Values

The incident in Mangalore was the most despicable and deplorable incident I've seen in a long, long time. 40 men barged in to a pub shouting slogans and tried to do what they justify as moral policing. What they really did was molest 5 girls. The Sri Ram Sena argues that women in India are having their morals and their culture eroded by what is termed as the 'Pub Culture.' Even sadder is the response of our political parties who are busy playing the blame game.

What irritates me the most is that some people feel comfortable imposing their will over others. Such instances can be seen everywhere. Some people feel the need to police others morals. It is unfair for anyone to have to live according to the opinion of someone else.

I will not have anyone tell me:

- Who I can see.
- Where I can go.
- What I can or can't wear.
- What religious beliefs I can have.
- What patriotism means to me.
- What my habits should be.
- Who I can have as friends.
- What my culture is.

People who are desperately hanging on their beliefs find it necessary to impose them on others. Belief is personal. What is personal to me is nobody's business.

The Goa Trip!

We're going to Goa this Friday. We haven't the foggiest idea as to what we'll do there. More often that not, these trips turn out to be the most memorable. People at home often wonder why I need to go out so often. I don't really know why, but I hope that these lyrics from a Smashmouth song can say it all:

" Somebody once asked could I spare some change for gas
I need to get myself away from this place.
I said yep! what a concept.
I could use a little fuel myself;
And we could all use a little change. "

Le Voyage de Goa Diaries!

Today!

I'm bored to death and my work refuses to work on auto-pilot. :(

Memories

The movie 'When Harry Met Sally' was on TV tonight. Wow. Its been a really long time since I saw that movie. That was Lizzie's favorite movie and we used to watch it all the time. She'd tell me how romantic the movie was and how she'd wish we could have met like Billy and Meg do in the movie. I'd remind her that we'd have to split up for that and then meet again purely by chance and she'd laugh.

And now, ironically, I find myself wishing that would happen. Just one of those times.

Going Green!

I turned vegetarian for this year. Its a scary prospect considering the kind of non-vegetarian I am. It feels good in an odd kind of way to be a veggie. I'm sure a lot of people I know are giving me knowing grins to me as they spent a good amount of time convincing me that being a non-vegetarian was not the way to be. Cool now? Yeah, way cool.

I went from this:


to this:


Umm... expecting some comments at least. :)